I'm blue because we are saying good bye to J's cousin tonight and they are getting on a plane tomorrow night, and we aren't.
We are staying in SA, trying to find a house on a budget... in the most expensive province we have. So, we get crappy and kind of ugly. Which isn't exciting in this frame of mind I'm in.
Plus, estate agents think you are cheap when you try to milk a house that's worth a million for only 700k.
Any way... I've been browsing New Zealand websites today. I find it so depressing that we can't go!
Why can't this dream leave me alone? Why can't I just settle down like a normal person, have babies and be content in my small little bookkeeping job?
Will we not have what we pray so very hard for? Or will we find peace.
I really feel like another adventure. I know we are buying a house, but I know my family in law will flip out if we pack up and head across the waters again. They think I'm a loose canon. Maybe I am.
Either way, I just wanted to vent.
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