Suddenly, I'm over finding a house...

I had an epiphany on Friday.  I'm psychologically over looking for a house.  I'm done being pressured by parents into buying a house simply because it's a good investment.

Sure, it is an investment, and sure, if we don't buy right this minute, we might never be able to afford a house in the Western Cape (since it's practically becoming impossible to find a place less than a good R1.8 million).

Things at my work have been strained.  I think my New York boss, who's come and bought a wine farm in Stellenbosch has woken up to the realities of farming in this little politically strained country of ours.

At first, it was all wonderful and moonshine and roses, and now, she's hating everything.  With passion.

So, I'm not sure if I have a job any more and the Western Cape isn't exactly known for their high pay scales, nor the frequency with which jobs appear on the Gumtree.

Therefore, I have decided on Friday that until I know that I have a job, we can't possibly look at buying property.

When we went away to Hermanus, my husband's dad told us he'd borrow us some money.  But I've been feeling strange about that all the time.  We can borrow enough to buy a house, it's just that just because you can borrow enough money doesn't mean you can pay it back monthly.  We are sceptics by nature, me and my hub.  He too doesn't want to accept parental support.  We need to do this on our own, or not at all.

I just feel that they want us to buy a house so that we could leave this nonsense of going overseas business behind us, make babies and settle down.  His parents were vehemently against us going back overseas.  

Unfortunately, I am more scared of settling down before seeing the world than seeing a snake lurch his body in full blown attack mode.  Yes, at 31 years of age I am still plagued by wanderlust.

So, this dream I have that just doesn't want to quit about immigration has flared up when faced with pressure.

Auckland skyline, via the wonderful Auckland Daily Photo

I just want to have this sky line as my own too. I want to make NZ my home.  I know it won't be easy, but aren't the best things in life really difficult when you go through them?

Please Lord, You can make this happen?